Something about love

So it's late at night, I'm lying in my bed trying to get some sleep but not really succeeding. I just can't stop thinking about my sweet Linnea, how I miss her during the weeks that I'm here. How much I truly love her. When I'm in my bunk bed all alone missing her gentle touch and voice. It has been tough on both of us me being here but we've never given up on hope or stopped trying. She really has been my pillar in this, driving me here every week, buying me weekly packages of candy etc. and just helping me out whenever I've felt bad. Luckily the army will be over in less than two months and we can start to live a normal life again. A life together without me being absent in one way or another. We've had quite a few bumps in our short but still long way to where we are now. When we met just over a year ago life was totally different.

I left to Albania on my own, a short while after we met, not knowing exactly when I return or what. We kept contact with Linnea from day one and ever since we've been in touch. Every. Single. Day. That's one of the awesome things in our relationship and something to truly hold on, it doesn't matter where we are, together or separate we want to talk with each other about everything, share the day and our feelings. Happy or sad. Linnea amazed me from the day we met with her specially bright appearance and amazing worldviews. I thought I would never find anyone that I could bond with so specially and deeply as I have with her. This bond has just grown tighter ever since.

I feel life has gotten an entirely different meaning since we've been together. I feel more matured and focus more on the stuff that is important in life. She has shown me a lot of good about life and done a lot for me. When I was living in Albania she even came to visit me as a surprise (which I accidentally found out about a few days ahead) two weeks before I was bound to return. I still remember sitting at the phone and not believing what she was saying. She flew all the way from Finland to Albania for a short weekend just to be with me. I am forever grateful to her about this. I don't believe we would be where we are if she had not done it. Since then we've been on a million other adventures around the world and close to home, everyone of them brings us closer and tightens our relationship.

I love my darling every day more and more, a thing that will never change. I am ready to fight until the end to spend my life with her. When you have found perfection why should you give up on it? I love how we do everything together, if it's traveling or just daily stuff like cooking and movies. Even casual things are never boring when we do it together. I love her beautiful hair that I stroke every night we are together until she falls asleep. I love the way she laughs at my crappy jokes and when I tickle her. I love the fact that she loves me back too and accepts me with all my imperfections. I love how she just grabs the moment and lives life fully every day. I love the way we talk about our future and secretly dream about a house and kids in Australia by the beach.

I know I haven't always been the best kind of boyfriend, I have no trouble admitting it. I don't always notice her needs enough or do enough for our relationship but it doesn't mean that I've ever stopped loving her or love her less. I need to step up more in our relationship and not let her take all the weight on her shoulders. I know what to do, I'm working on it. If there is one thing I'm sure about in this life it's the fact that I've found the person to spend my life with. Thank you for making my life so perfect as it is with you.

I love you Linnea, my sweetheart.

Arno